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Where’s the Book?

May 31, 2025

 

A reminder that there’s lots of new life out there these days. Gives me hope.

I had something very interesting that I was going to write, but then I had to wait for my laptop to warm up, and then I had to wait for Microsoft Word to load. It took a long time because I am trying to finish final edits on my book, and that is a long document which I try to keep active, so by the time Word finally opened, I had forgotten all the things I was going to write that were brilliant. So instead I spent about an hour editing my book, which was probably a better use of my time, come to think of it.

(In case you are interested, my book “Ordinary Holy: Searching for Grace in the Everyday” comes in at just over 230 pages and is made up of 100 journal-like reflections. Some of the entries are a little vulnerable. Some are silly. Some are full of gratitude. Kind of like life, no?)

So I have a hard copy of something that looks like a book. I printed a few preliminary copies last November, so I could see how the whole thing came together in book form. A few generous souls volunteered to read that first version and gave me valuable feedback. I have been trying to make simple changes and edits since then; it has been a slog. The self-publishing company that I used recently abandoned the book building platform that helped me create the initial version of my book. Instead of being able to make changes in my online account with them, my only option now is to work with a PDF that they sent me.

So I just need to make changes in a PDF.  Surely this must not be so very difficult?

My brilliant and generous friend who is also a professional graphic designer sighed and shook her head when I asked her this. Because basically, it is very difficult.

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Presence, Security

Not Alone

May 24, 2025

It is 7:15 pm on Saturday evening, and 7:15 pm on a Saturday is much too late to begin writing a blog post. But if I do not start now, there will be no post. Probably that would be fine. Except writing the post is something I can do on a Saturday night when I am home alone that makes me feel better.

I hate to keep telling you that I’ve been a little sad lately. “This seems to be lasting awhile,” my friend said to me the other day.

Yes, she is right.

I could feel bad about that. But to feel bad about the sad? That is silly, like unnecessarily heaping additional coals of gloominess onto my already sorrowful head.

I’ve shared before that I am a Rob Bell fan. Bell wrote “Love Wins” a few years ago (great book) and has a podcast called “the RobCast” which I’ve faithfully listened to for years. A few weeks back I signed up for his Patreon account. He’s doing a thing on Patreon where he reads sections of whatever he’s writing. He’s shared three parts of a book he’s working on called “Skinbags and Spacesuits.” In Part Two, he said, “I feel sad. Often. I wake up and it’s just there. It usually feels like a wave. It comes in and passes through and then eventually it goes.”

The fact that Rob Bell admits that he also feels sad, and often? That makes me feel a little better, like it’s a reminder that I’m not alone with these big emotions.

(I’m sure some of you would also reassure me that I am not alone with these big emotions, because you have been feeling them too.)

It’s the political situation (and yes, Kilmar Abrego Garcia is still in prison in El Salvador after being wrongfully deported more than two months ago) and there’s Trump’s horrific “big beautiful bill,” along with a lot of general uncertainty. What will happen to fire insurance premiums this year? Will State Farm continue to cover my home or will they drop me like they have so many others? If they do continue my coverage, what will it cost next year? And the year after that?

Possibly I am hungry now and this Whole30 elimination diet that I’ve already mentioned many times is not allowing me to buffer my emotions with popcorn, mild cheddar cheese, and dark chocolate (because no sugar, dairy or grains for 30 days). I could really use one of those Costco sized bags of Skinny Pop right now. Would maybe devour the entire thing. Continue Reading…