Presence, Security

Another Fire

July 19, 2025

It was not the best day for a wildfire to break out near my home this week.

The best days for fires to break out? Saturdays and Sundays, I think. Because I’m usually home and can obsessively check my WatchDuty fire notification app and YubaNet, a local news service. I can see the updates as they flow in. WatchDuty will show me how the wind is blowing: if it is a strong, gusty wind or a slight one, and (more importantly) if it is blowing the fire in my direction or away.

If I am home and the authorities notify us that we need to evacuate, I can load the car with my Go Bag and a few keepsakes. In the past I’ve remembered my Mom’s and Grandma’s handwritten recipe notecards, the Don Quijote and Sancho Panza bookends that I bought in Guatemala. I can make sure I grab my laptop and charger, my journal. Our pillows. Sometimes I’ve remembered to throw the dirty clothes in a trash bag and toss them in the back of the car. A survivor of the Camp Fire, the one that destroyed the town of Paradise a few years ago, gave that tip since the dirty clothes are “the ones that you wear the most.”

But the fire that started near my home this week did not start on a weekend. The Lowell Fire broke out Wednesday morning on the Nevada County side of the Bear River and never threatened any structures or prompted evacuations. Still, though. It was terrifying to walk outside with the dog on a regular weekday morning, in a bit of a hurry because I needed to head to work, and smell smoke: always the first clue that something is amiss. Then I saw planes flying overhead; a few minutes later, two fire engines screamed past my house. There was smoke blowing our way.

It’s a terrible way to start the day.

Because then I have to decide. I am supposed to work, and work is not really an optional activity—not if I want money to pay for my house which is smack dab in the middle of fire country, and also my fire insurance, which is (for now) still active and hasn’t been cancelled. If I leave and the fire grows, odds are good that I won’t be able to get home again. They’ll close the freeway.

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Presence, Security

A Summer Lament

July 12, 2025

The wild blackberries up the street are ripening.

Summer used to be my favorite season.

My kids had weeks of vacation, so there was time to be out in the world together and also time to relax at home. I loved that there was no need to hurry out the door in the morning to make it to school on time. Sure, it could get hot some days, but at night the temperature almost always dropped down to the 50s. We would open the windows in the evening, and the house would cool down. We didn’t have air conditioning; hardly anybody around here did. You didn’t need it, because we all knew to open our windows in the early evening to let the cool breezes blow through. Nighttime temperatures were comfortable. There was no sweating inside.

Summer doesn’t feel the same these days. Part of it might be that my kids are grown. One is working on Catalina Island and has employee housing and access to kayaks on her days off and is enjoying newfound friendships and somehow saving money, too. My younger child is home for a few weeks before returning to university in the fall; I’m grateful for that at least! But we find ourselves together in the house much of the time with less motivation to be out exploring the world together­­—partly because it is so hot out there.

Yes, it is hot. It is in the low 90s today, which is ghastly, but even worse is that the nighttime lows won’t fall much below 70 for the next few nights. Our historical low nighttime temperature? 59 degrees.

It’s not only the heat, though, that makes summer less joyful these days. It’s my WatchDuty app, a blessed piece of technology that chimes to alert me whenever a fire springs up in my area. It’s extremely helpful to know when there is a fire nearby. But that WatchDuty sound! I am not alone in having a sort of PTSD response when it pops up on my cell phone. The other day while giving a massage, I saw that I had received a WatchDuty notification (of course my phone was on silent, but I saw the message pop up). I immediately paused the treatment, offered a quick apology to my client, and checked that the fire was nowhere near my home. He said that he understood completely and was also relieved that it was nowhere near his, either. Continue Reading…