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River Fire Water Smoke

August 7, 2021

Last week, I woke up one morning with a strange ringing in my head. I wrote about it here: Tinnitus. The next morning when I woke up, the unsettling ringing was gone, and my tinnitus was back to normal, which is sometimes annoying but generally manageable. I was so grateful. It made me realize how often I fail to appreciate the beautiful ordinariness of my life.

So any day you wake up without a strange ringing in your head? It’s a good day.

I have something to add to that this week.

Any day you wake up and your house is standing, even if it’s messy and cluttered and could use a kitchen remodel, even if the cat keeps peeing in the laundry room and is getting old and dropping random poop patties around the house?

Even with all that? It is a darned good day.

We know we live in fire country. We have go-bags packed.

Last Wednesday, a fire started, not far from here. They named it the “River Fire.” I first saw the smoke as I was driving home from town, after going to my weekly centering prayer circle, followed by a little work and a trip to the grocery store.  I was in a jolly mood, feeling pretty good about all that I had accomplished that day. And then? There was smoke. And a little panic. Continue Reading…

Presence

Tinnitus and the Beautiful Ordinary

July 31, 2021

Even grateful for a big cat named Milo, who likes to drink out of a green cup in the big bathtub.

I woke up one morning this week with a strange ringing in my right ear.

Now, I have had tinnitus in both my ears for just about as long as I can remember. It generally doesn’t bother me much. I go through my days, my weeks, and hardly notice it. In fact, I forget about it for long stretches of time. That morning, though, I had a strange sound breakthrough. It was loud enough to wake me up, and it stayed with me most of the day. It is hard to describe: there was a hum that was louder than usual, along with a  kind of whistle that only showed up with sounds that had a higher pitch. So, when I tried to listen to a podcast on my drive to work, some of the host’s words sounded squealy. When I was doing massages in the afternoon with my “spa music” playlist, and a song with high tinkly piano notes came on, those sounds reverberated. Plus, the lower, constant tone was louder than normal. It was bad enough to almost block out all the normal tinnitus noise from my left ear. That never happens. That didn’t feel good.

It was enough to make me a little crazy. Continue Reading…