Presence, Success

Sowing Seeds, but Not the “Right” Way

October 22, 2022

Just a little bluebird that I saw at the park the other day. Always a treat.

I planted my pound of California poppy seeds today.

I did not do it the right way.

If I followed the directions for how you are supposed to plant seeds, I am pretty sure that I would never plant anything. There are apparently many precise steps you need to follow to plant seeds properly, according to the Google and the backs of the seed packages. The steps include clearing the area of all other plant matter, raking it smooth, gently scattering the seeds, covering them gently with a bit of dirt.

This is what I did: I took the seeds and tossed them wherever I would love to see poppies growing. This means that some of the seeds won’t grow. But with any luck, some will. If the poppy seeds stayed in the seed bag, it is 100 percent guaranteed that nothing new would appear in the spring. This way? At least there is hope. Possibility.

The older I get, the more I understand (to quote Gretchen Rubin, podcast host and author) that the perfect is the enemy of the good. Or, as one of my first writing mentors taught me, “If it’s worth doing at all, it’s worth doing poorly.”

So I got my seeds out of the package and onto the earth. I also dug holes that were not deep enough for the bulbs that my neighbor gave me (because the ground is too hard to get them in as far as is recommended).  But since in past years I never got my bulbs planted deep enough either, and they came up just fine, I think there’s at least a chance that some of them will appear in the spring. I also took time this week to pull up the iris that hadn’t bloomed for years. They were smothering the telephone pole up by the street.  Now in the space where they used to be, I could scatter my poppy seeds.

Now I wait and hope.

Daily Humiliation, Presence

Who Are the People?

October 15, 2022
(maybe the people is me?)

A new pile of trash by the railroad tracks where I often take walks. Walks are a little less restorative (and a little sad) when trash appears…

Sometimes, people make you a little cranky..

Surely this is true.  Surely even this week you encountered somebody somewhere who did something that you judged as not so very good.

But who are they? Who are these nebulous “people” that do all these annoying things?

For example (a few instances from my week):

Who are the people who dumped trash alongside the railroad tracks where I take my walks? It’s a new pile which appeared since my last time up there.  It included two empty beer cans, a bag of unopened white rice, and a box of unused canned goods.

(Then again: Who are the people who pick up trash on the highway and in small towns?  I see them on the side of the road with their gloves and trash bags, poker sticks and fluorescent orange vests.)

Who are the people who call and make massage appointments, cancel them (not for the first time) and then give you push back when you suggest an opening at 11:30 am because that is “too late for them”?

(Who are the people who write thank you notes after their massages, who tell me how much my work is helping them?)

Who are the people who apparently think it is super fun to give the substitute teacher a little bit of a hard time?

(Who are the people who stay after class to help pick up trash and stack the chairs and then talk about the books they are reading, like Harry Potter! and how much they love them!)

Who are the people who barely stop at stop signs and zoom away before it is their turn?  Who are the people who do that kind of bad driving?

(That last one? That people was me. Because I did that this week. Didn’t mean to. Wasn’t thinking. Deserved the honking that I got. Apologized in my mind. Which probably didn’t help the offended driver at all, who probably was thinking, “Who are the people who…?”)

All these things.

All these people.

The people is out there. And the people is me. I’m part of it. When there is traffic that is bothering others, and I am sitting in it, then it’s me who is part of the problem.

(But! (can you hear me protesting now?)  I am not one who dumps garbage by the railroad tracks! I am not one who cancels appointments and is picky about rescheduling!)

Yes.

And.

I am one who forgets the good, who forgets that there are people who pick up trash and write thank you notes. I am one who perseverates on things that bother me. I am one who can be snarky and who every once in awhile even accidentally runs a stop sign.

(I don’t think I am alone in this.)

All of us are the people.

And part of being part of the people is being human.

(although I am still having trouble wrapping my mind around the kind of person who would dump garbage by the railroad tracks. But I’m grateful that there are people who figure out a way to clean it up. And maybe I can help with that, too.)