Daily Grace, Presence

Snowshoes and Me

March 22, 2025

A little of what I saw as I trekked along in my snowshoes.

My youngest is home from college for spring break. Earlier this week, we drove up to Kirkwood Ski Resort to visit my daughter who has been working there this winter. We stopped by their Nordic center so the kids could do a little cross-country skiing. They both were part of their high school Nordic teams, but it had been awhile since they had a chance to cross-country ski and years since they had skied together. The helpful woman working behind the counter started to find skis for them. I told her that I was “just going to read my book.”

The sign at the rental counter had alerted me to the cost of a daily trail pass for skiing or snowshoeing. I also thought I would need to rent skis for my son. I imagined that my daughter’s employee pass would get her a complimentary trail pass and a discounted rate for skis, but I was planning to pay whatever was necessary for my son to enjoy a day out skiing with his sister. I knew they had snowshoes for rent, and it would have been nice, of course, but it wasn’t really necessary. By opting out, I could save some money. And it wouldn’t be such a terrible thing, to read my book (a Louise Penny Three Pines mystery) in such a beautiful place.

Then the woman in charge looked at me and said, “You could read your book, but you really should get snowshoes.”

So I did.

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Presence, Security

Like Christmas Morning

March 15, 2025

I had a morning last week that felt like Christmas morning. Or like the memory of one of my teenaged days when I woke up and my Mom and I would get in the car and drive to town and spend the day together, maybe go shopping and out to lunch, and there wasn’t anything tremendously special that happened, it just was that we were together, a golden ordinary day.

Funny that I am tearing up a little as I write that.

I had a day like that last week because I went to an imaging lab and had a second set of scans performed on an area of my left breast. I had gone in for a mammogram the week before, a procedure that always sends my hypochondriac-prone self into spasms of anxiety. Because it’s a thing that you are supposed to do every year, but you never know what will be discovered. Will everything be fine like it’s been for years or will there be a shadow, something amiss that will change the trajectory of how your life is going, suddenly veering you off in a new unwanted direction with appointments, an oncologist, unplanned expenses, new kinds of pain?

There is a sign on the wall of the mammogram changing room that says you should receive results in a week to ten days. Sometimes it can take longer if they have to hunt down scans that were taken at other facilities. I remember that last year I received my results quickly, much quicker than I thought possible, and everything was fine. Of course, this year, I hoped that would happen again.

It did not. My mammogram was on Saturday. I did not hear anything until I got a voicemail from the imaging lab on Thursday, asking me to call them back. You do not want to get calls from doctors after scans like mammograms. It generally does not mean good news.

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