Presence, Security

Mistakes and Grace

August 2, 2025

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It was a week of mistakes and grace—always good when those things go together.

I did a clumsy thing and hit a rather big item on the road in the dark the other night. We were just heading home from a wonderful evening, the kind where you look back on it and realize that you finally had a day that felt like summer. There was barbecued chicken, a pool with floaties, and the best of friends, all together for the evening.

The problem with lovely evenings is that, afterwards, you pretty much have to drive home in the dark, which is what I was doing when I got distracted—or went into a trance for a minute—and hit a big object in the road.

It startled both my son and me.

I didn’t even see it!

But the car found it. My child wisely said, “Better check the tires.”

Which I did, the next morning. Funny thing: the “check tire” light had come on earlier in the day, even before I hit the camouflaged object hiding in the road. The light came on again in the morning as I was heading to work. Did I think much about it? No! Did I get out and look at the tires? Yes! Did they look okay to me? Yes! Am I actually skilled in looking at a tire and determining if it is actually okay? Not so much.

So I was rolling down the freeway, heading to the groomers so Biscuit could get a bath and a haircut, when I noticed a truck had slowed down next to me. Was the driver motioning to me? Maybe? Couldn’t tell. Did I want to make eye contact? Not the kind of thing that I generally try to do.

But then I pulled off at the next exit, and he was waiting on the side of the road.

“I’m glad you pulled off,” he said. “You’ve got a flat tire.”

So I did.

Not just a little flat. Not kind of flat and probably enough air to drive to the nearest gas station to get air into it. Nope. Pancake flat.

He offered to change it for me.

So that was a mistake that turned into grace. My first mistake: hitting the thing in the road. My second mistake: naively ignoring my car’s tire warning light. But the grace? This stranger who took about half an hour out of his day to help a stranger on the off-ramp of a busy freeway. (Bell Road, westbound, for any locals who want to picture it.) Also grace: that my sad tire did not blow out on the freeway. That could have changed everything.

But that was not the end of grace for me that day.

Because the next conundrum was getting the flatty tire fixed.

If you live anywhere around the Auburn area, I need to tell you about Phil Souza of Souza’s Tires. He took time out of his already full day to fix my flat tire, which also needed a new lug stud. He refused any payment, assured me that my tires had “hardly any wear on them,” and kindly sent me on my way.

It was a rough day, but think how much worse it could have been. What might have happened to me and the car if the tire had blown on the freeway or if I’d kept driving merrily along, damaging the wheel rim or the car’s suspension, never realizing that the tire was flat until it was too late? What if I hadn’t found an honest tire shop to fix my tire and get me on the road again?

So much grace in a day that didn’t go anything like I planned when I got up in the morning. Grace that got me safely to town and back home again. Grace that cared for me, in spite of my mistakes.

Presence, Security

Another Fire

July 19, 2025

It was not the best day for a wildfire to break out near my home this week.

The best days for fires to break out? Saturdays and Sundays, I think. Because I’m usually home and can obsessively check my WatchDuty fire notification app and YubaNet, a local news service. I can see the updates as they flow in. WatchDuty will show me how the wind is blowing: if it is a strong, gusty wind or a slight one, and (more importantly) if it is blowing the fire in my direction or away.

If I am home and the authorities notify us that we need to evacuate, I can load the car with my Go Bag and a few keepsakes. In the past I’ve remembered my Mom’s and Grandma’s handwritten recipe notecards, the Don Quijote and Sancho Panza bookends that I bought in Guatemala. I can make sure I grab my laptop and charger, my journal. Our pillows. Sometimes I’ve remembered to throw the dirty clothes in a trash bag and toss them in the back of the car. A survivor of the Camp Fire, the one that destroyed the town of Paradise a few years ago, gave that tip since the dirty clothes are “the ones that you wear the most.”

But the fire that started near my home this week did not start on a weekend. The Lowell Fire broke out Wednesday morning on the Nevada County side of the Bear River and never threatened any structures or prompted evacuations. Still, though. It was terrifying to walk outside with the dog on a regular weekday morning, in a bit of a hurry because I needed to head to work, and smell smoke: always the first clue that something is amiss. Then I saw planes flying overhead; a few minutes later, two fire engines screamed past my house. There was smoke blowing our way.

It’s a terrible way to start the day.

Because then I have to decide. I am supposed to work, and work is not really an optional activity—not if I want money to pay for my house which is smack dab in the middle of fire country, and also my fire insurance, which is (for now) still active and hasn’t been cancelled. If I leave and the fire grows, odds are good that I won’t be able to get home again. They’ll close the freeway.

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