Daily Grace, Presence

When Everything Falls Apart, Feed the Birds

January 8, 2020

Some days, the best I can do is to go for a walk.

I can’t do anything about the fires burning in Australia, about the lives lost, both human and animal, or the homes and habitat destroyed.

I can’t do anything about the earthquakes in Puerto Rico.

I can’t do anything about Iran.

Especially Iran.

Today, this day, there is nothing I can do about any of that.

But I can feed the birds, the bright community that gathers daily outside my kitchen window.

I can get them clean water for their bird bath.

I can ask my husband to stop at the feed store and bring home a 40 pound bag of black oil sunflower seeds, since we ran out just after Christmas. Forty pounds of seed will last awhile. That in itself makes me happy. I can then slip on his old shoes which are a little too big for me, my favorite shoes for gardening, and go out in the muck to fill the empty feeders. I know that the clever mama deer will probably have emptied the feeder she can reach by early tomorrow morning. She seems to wander into the front yard everyday, and she’s the only one who has figured out how to do it. I’ve watched other deer try; they just can’t get the hang of it. So good for her. There is still plenty left for the birds.

I can bring in the empty sacks that hold seed for the finches and fill those using a funnel that I got from my Mom’s house.  I love that funnel, which is stained purple from berries. She used it to make jam, I think. It is also perfect for guiding the tiny seeds into the flimsy sacks.  I think about my Mom whenever I use it. A win win.

I can fill the feeders and then snap on my dog’s leash and take him for a walk. It’s good to get outside.

Some wise person once said that no act of kindness is ever wasted. I think that today,  the best I can do is to fill the bird feeders and walk the dog. Hopefully, for today, that will be enough.

 

Presence

The Most Wonderful Time of the Year?

December 20, 2019

The birds after I filled the feeders. I think all of us feel better.

Note to myself, from myself, this morning, when I realize it’s been nearly a month since I posted a blog, and I can’t imagine what to write next.  This is a bit of a problem, because if you have a blog, ideally you should write regularly. Like once a week, in an ideal world? So you can see how my blogging world is not ideal. Plus it is just a few days before Christmas, and it is “the most wonderful time of the year,” they say, but what if I wake up and it isn’t? What if it’s just me and my dirty house and my ordinary brokenness?

Maybe this is what I should say to myself:

If you are feeling sad, my dear, says my wise self to my broken self, I wonder if it is because it is 10:51 am on a grey December morning one week before Christmas and you are still in your pajamas?  Might I gently suggest that it could be a good idea to get up from the computer, where you are desperately trying to write something GOOD? Or is it that you got lost scrolling through social media apps and are saddened by all the posts from “influencers,” people who seem to have it together in a way that you never will. If this is the case, then get up right now. Turn off your phone.  Shut down the computer. Go get dressed. Getting dressed is a fine way to walk back the sadness, even a little. Fresh clothes, fresh mind, right? I just made that up, but it fits. Continue Reading…